Pretnd..(poem)

Pretend...

my friends...who I always thought..who always love me...were..lies
and I thought..they were real friends..ones who are there for..me...allies....
they have lied...to me...why did they? What did I do to them?
And I was always...thought..we all gems...
but their the shining ones...and I an not...
I am the one...who is forgotten..
I am ignore...and plus I ain't a attention whore...
my heart...has turn into blue..the core..
I have been beaten up a lot...and suffer
I wish I was tougher...
but I know....they had a bad live before..
I..went through the door of sadness....door...
I have...been much worse...but explain here...?
no...i should cheer...cheer up...cheer
by now...i dont wana spread my sadness
cause I dont wana spread my madness
I....dont have live in this world
because...i am a girl!!
now I am the bitch
and my friends..are the one who are rich...